Diana Rajchel

differently Wiccan: Contemporary, Urban, Integrated

Supplies: the Goodies

April 18, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Goody Two Shoes; J. C. Williamson's gorgeous annual pantomime. 1919.

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I could get attached to…          Because                                                                                             How I could get that feeling myself

1. Travel                                         I want to see everything                                                              it’s travel. Travel is my favorite thing, right next to dancing and writing.
2. Attention                                 Yay, people are finally noticing me!                                       Write a list of my real friends and how we met. Most sought me out.
I must be moderately important!

3. Praise                                         I felt starved for it when I was younger.                               Look at my box of letters from true friends.

4.Money                                        It expands my choices.                                                                 Continue to find frugal/free things to do. I have a rich life that way.

5. The in-crowd feel                 I too have childhood nerd hangups                                          Look to my values. The in-crowd isn’t among them.


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Supplies: the Chorus of Woes: the most ridiculous complaint I’ve heard

April 17, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Exercising on the Beach

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What Cameron speaks of here is not the real Greek Chorus coming out to warn the hero (like the hero can even see them, anyway) but the one that we conjure in our heads … sometimes just to have something to complain about.

So, going through the questions – there’s one guy I’m picking on because he does so very much of this crap, and it’s all crap. When you tell him it’s crap and self-created he tends to throw temper tantrums. But gods help you if you try to talk about anything else but him. It’s enough that I avoid events with him at it now unless I am surrounded by people that will help me ignore him.

Most ridiculous complaint:

“Everybody knows who I am everywhere I go!”

Really? The grocery store? The post office? … .wait, aren’t you going to like, the exact same three to five places over and over. That’s not the price of fame. That’s being a regular and lacking imagination.

He’s actually a host of other similar ridiculous complaints/humble brags. I dare not get more specific than that.


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Supplies: the Chorus of Woes: the most ridiculous complaint I’ve heard

April 17, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Exercising on the Beach

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What Cameron speaks of here is not the real Greek Chorus coming out to warn the hero (like the hero can even see them, anyway) but the one that we conjure in our heads … sometimes just to have something to complain about.

So, going through the questions – there’s one guy I’m picking on because he does so very much of this crap, and it’s all crap. When you tell him it’s crap and self-created he tends to throw temper tantrums. But gods help you if you try to talk about anything else but him. It’s enough that I avoid events with him at it now unless I am surrounded by people that will help me ignore him.

Most ridiculous complaint:

“Everybody knows who I am everywhere I go!”

Really? The grocery store? The post office? … .wait, aren’t you going to like, the exact same three to five places over and over. That’s not the price of fame. That’s being a regular and lacking imagination.

He’s actually a host of other similar ridiculous complaints/humble brags. I dare not get more specific than that.


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Supplies: My Positive Role Model

April 16, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Queen Rumania  (LOC)

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Actually, I have so many positive role models it’s hard to pick one.

Right now I”m thinking of Dawn. Dawn decided what she wanted to do and did it. She has told me she has a no-drama policy. If someone is too prone to madness she drops them or just refuses to engage. She is surrounded by really great friendships and she is a great cheerleader to her friends and their creative projects. She’s an example of doing life and career right – with sincerity, based on real relationships rather than on relationships-for-a-reason.

So far, it’s worked quite well. I often refer to her as a fairy godmother. Don Fairy Godmother.


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Supplies: My Negative Role Model

April 15, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Gunmen going to Sing Sing  (LOC)

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Oh boy do I have a negative role model. Actually, I have at least three, possibly more. I’m going to hybrid them and pick things I’ve seen or heard from all of them. It’s like an archetypal negative role model. I should add that to my tarot deck – or maybe that’s what the Devil card really represents.

What bothers me specifically about the collective behavior is that it’s delusional, narcissistic … and really unimaginative. It’s the person that got upset that Mark Wahlberg went from Marky Mark to a successful career as an actor/film producer.

“So what, he can only do one thing?”

“Yes!”

Well, that’s bullshit. 

I am a more-than-one-thing artist and I reject this message.

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There are the name droppers. “Oh I met this famous person whose name you don’t know and he just adored my painting/book/personal style. You really should go meet that person and see what it might do for me – I mean, uh, you.”

… or I could focus on sincere relationships with supportive people and not take into account their connections or fame unless I am encouraging them to use those for themselves in some manner. When it counted, my real friends helped me in the ways that mattered. My name dropped from a celebrity’s lips means jack especially since most people will remember the celebrity and not what the celebrity says unless locked in a good hate-on fever.

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There are the “suffering artist” stereotypers, and that one stretches far and wide. Most recently a well-meaning friend posted some biased, very poorly researched Thought Catalog drek to my Facebook wall that encouraged the idea that all artists – especially writers – have something wrong with their brains that turns them into depressed crazy people, the implication being that maybe if we didn’t right we wouldn’t go crazy.

The article enraged me on multiple levels. First, Thought Catalog is a cess pool of confirmation biased base shit. I followed it for awhile just to see what it had to offer  and it is one of the great shames of the Internet. Essentially it’s people who are great at expository writing and terrible at critical thinking. Second, anytime you imply an entire population is x/has x without evidence based research to support it (and this had none) then you are currying bigotry for some purpose. Third, it stigmatizes depression. Fourth, the article stigmatizes creativity. Fifth, it seems to fail to connect that when depressed people are in their extreme low points they aren’t creating. Creation – art therapy and upward – is the neural activity that gets people out of depressive loops. It’s not 100% but it’s a factor. To assume a writer is automatically depressed or will get depressed because s/he writes is just offensive.  Depression and creativity are both complex. But creativity is NOT  disease, is not psychological smoking that will lead to a disease and in most cases probably does not exacerbate a disease.

Writing does not do bad things to my organs, least of all my brain.

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There’s the whole special snowflake shit. Oh the writing life is so difficult. Oh, all good writing and creation comes from a certain self loathing. Comedy comes from self loathing. Oh, you can’t be healthy or seek healing and still create.

Every day of my life informs me that this above line of poison is absolute screaming bullshit. The times in life that I suffer are the times in life that I’m not writing. When I’m writing I’m getting progressively better and working on my issues has made me a better, more empathetic human being and writer. I can also be funny as hell – and it’s not centered in self-hatred. The self-hatred schtick? Blech. Boring and predictable.

We are not special snowflakes. Originality isn’t worth thinking about – enjoyment is what really makes a difference.  Writing really is like dating: nothing good is going to happen unless you find a way to have fun with it. The acclaim/flattery/critical praise is for people that would rather read reviews than go on to the next project.

In a way, my writing career does have something in common with my corporate career: in corporations I hated, I always stepped away from office politics and reminded myself I was here to do my own time. Writing is my calling – so rather than doing my time, when I’m dealing with attention-seeking colleagues, it’s really about having my time. That means not giving it to them by not indulging the rhetoric of the special snowflake.

 


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Shutting down blog comments for good

April 14, 2014 by di | Comments Off | Filed in the Big Picture

After a blog career that goes back to 1999, it has come time for me to shut down comments on my blog altogether. Even in the early days the comments feature was often abused: strangers or ex friends and lovers loved to use the anonymous option to post sniping comments, thinking I was helpless to come back at them because anonymous equaled invincibility in their minds. Still, for the most part, the comments I got were sane, reasoned, continued a conversation – or, if the person was really worked up, s/he posted their own blog commentaries about what I’d written.

Protest by an Internet group calling itself 'A...

Protest by an Internet group calling itself ‘Anonymous’ against the practices and tax status of the Church of Scientology. The protesters believe the church is a cult that harms it practitioners, and that its tax-free status as a church should be revoked, as, they claim, it appears to be more of a corporation. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This weekend I sat through a Millennial Driven workshop on anonymity where these gems were dropped:
“My friend at Livejournal says that most trolls use a variation of their real name anyway ..”
1)it’s a variation 2)are they using that name on strangers or on people they actually know 3)there’s a 95% chance the person that said this is a liar, since Livejournal hasn’t had American employees/employees concerned with trolling since the Russians bought it, what, five years ago now?

2)Well, people are going to be jerks once in awhile. (Develop a thicker skin!)
My face cream isn’t so good that that wasn’t an insulting dismissal. Since this also came from the girl that dropped the Livejournal line of bullshit, which makes me suspect she herself enjoys trolling and harassing. Dismissive comments make enemies for a very good reason.

3)They were talking about anonymity LIKE IT’S A NEW CONCEPT. There was no discussion of or interest in why the Internet started with anonymity and then rolled it back. They even brought up some of the new apps – like Secret.ly. Notably no one seemed to know or want to acknowledge that Post Secret itself had an app, that they dropped, because it got abused in nasty, ugly ways – nor did they seem to acknowledge that happened in the last year. Seret.ly is worse because you can actually link it to your contacts list, thus making it possible to suss out who in your own circle feels the need to confess.

Reading comprehension, empathy or the ability to drop an agenda for the sake of context has not improved since 1999. It’s only gotten worse. This is why so many places have moved to Twitter and Facebook logins. It’s why I delete so many of the drooling pieces of coal dropped here.

Clearly, there’s a culture shift – and young adults with a lousy sense of history, i.e. a lousy sense of “why” at its deepest levels. Because history, recent or distant, is our answer to every “why” we can ask.

So I must respond to this cultural influence, as culture, like oxygen is unavoidable. In the last year, I have had to delete more comments on this blog than I have posted. The majority are angry, unreasoning and very self-centered/narcissistic, reacting badly to ideas that upend assumptions. I’m not an intentional iconoclast. What I write is intended to be as sensible as I can make it unless I say otherwise. If that comes off as iconoclastic, the problem does not lie with me. Still, since I am responding with dread to a comment on my blog field and it’s not like I owe any reader any money back for reading the blog, I am removing that source of irritation in my life. There is a difference between sick and crazy: I am fucking tired of indulging the crazy, especially the crazy who coopt the language of the legitimately ill to get away with their bad behavior.

My cultural response to this over-indulgent shift is to shut off comments. So at some point this week, all comments will be gone across all my blog platforms. If you want to discuss my ideas, or discuss them with me you’re just going to have to write your own responding blog post, find me on a social platform where you’ve already earned the privilege of connecting with me (earned by behaving like a civil human being) or talk to me about it face to face like a responsible adult.

You people already have 4Chan. I don’t owe you a goddamn thing.

Supplies: A Monologue of Tragic Attempts

April 14, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity

Image taken from page 22 of 'Bateman's Tragedy: or, the Perjur'd Bride justly rewarded. Being the history of the unfortunate love of German's wife and young Bateman. [A chap-book, in prose, with the original ballad, entitled “A Godly Warning to all Maiden

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This exercise is “write a monologue” of the worst stories/excuses of people that have succeeded once and refuse to go out again. It may just be a loose collection of quotes.

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Oh yes, I pitched that idea – and someone wrote the exact same book ten years later. My idea was stolen!  I could write, but I only like to write in restaurants and then the staff befriends me and I can never get anything done. You know how it is – you get something out there and then everything is so commercial. It really comes down to who you know and this person at this publisher just hates me. I’ve heard all these rumors about people at other publishers. After awhile, everybody wants your advice and they get pissy when you can’t take time out for each and every person. We watched performers before us and they used the exact same material we were going to! Oh, I want to write or make a TV show or whatever but there’s just nothing original to do anymore. Honestly, I could make it but people would just shit all over it anyway. It’s so hard to do anything worthwhile. Well, that takes so much money. I hate everything there is out there and it shouldn’t be my job to make something better. I met this other author and I just don’t want to turn into that guy. Well, yeah, I heard that project but I’ve never heard of that person – the research is great but we’re looking for a name. I have to take a day job so I guess that means I’m a failure.

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I’m sure there’s so much more – often I block and dismiss because it’s easier than absorbing the grandiose stupidity.


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Supplies: A Monologue of Tragic Attempts

April 14, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity

Image taken from page 22 of 'Bateman's Tragedy: or, the Perjur'd Bride justly rewarded. Being the history of the unfortunate love of German's wife and young Bateman. [A chap-book, in prose, with the original ballad, entitled “A Godly Warning to all Maiden

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This exercise is “write a monologue” of the worst stories/excuses of people that have succeeded once and refuse to go out again. It may just be a loose collection of quotes.

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Oh yes, I pitched that idea – and someone wrote the exact same book ten years later. My idea was stolen!  I could write, but I only like to write in restaurants and then the staff befriends me and I can never get anything done. You know how it is – you get something out there and then everything is so commercial. It really comes down to who you know and this person at this publisher just hates me. I’ve heard all these rumors about people at other publishers. After awhile, everybody wants your advice and they get pissy when you can’t take time out for each and every person. We watched performers before us and they used the exact same material we were going to! Oh, I want to write or make a TV show or whatever but there’s just nothing original to do anymore. Honestly, I could make it but people would just shit all over it anyway. It’s so hard to do anything worthwhile. Well, that takes so much money. I hate everything there is out there and it shouldn’t be my job to make something better. I met this other author and I just don’t want to turn into that guy. Well, yeah, I heard that project but I’ve never heard of that person – the research is great but we’re looking for a name. I have to take a day job so I guess that means I’m a failure.

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I’m sure there’s so much more – often I block and dismiss because it’s easier than absorbing the grandiose stupidity.


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Supplies: The Chorus of Woes: Real Gripes and Conversions

April 13, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Theatre Royal chorus, Tamarama Beach, ca. 1938 / by Sam Hood

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The Gripes

This is a series of real gripes about my current writing projects.

I’m scared it won’t be good enough. I worry I won’t finish it on time. I am having to take Mabon way out of the Pagan religious sphere into mainstream associations and what if people get all butthurt and start wailing that it’s not Pagan enough? What if they complain that I am not Pagan enough? My publisher is a much different publisher than it used to be but way to many people have developed confirmation bias – if it’s good they’ll just ignore that it’s good and carry on as though it’s still that old publisher from the 90s. I keep running into physical issues while I’m trying to write and accomplish. It’s starting to frighten/worry me a little. What if nothing I do is enough, ever? What if my back goes out again when I’m trying to work? I try to tough it out but it is truly difficult to focus enough to write when your body has gone crazy on you. I’m also worried about balancing it against the book coming out this year. How do I do promotion for that when I am embroiled in a contract right now? How the hell do other writers manage this stuff?

Conversions:

1. I’m scared I won’t be good enough.

Conversion: Of course I’m good enough. They gave me the contract because I have demonstrated since 1999 that I am good enough for such a project.

2. I’m scared I won’t finish in time.

Conversion: You have expended the most effort on the heavy research part. The other stuff involves things you write all the time that come very naturally to you. You can do this. If you really are worried about being stuck, contact your editor. Remember, this time you do have a more formal editor who will likely be revising along with you.

3. What if people complain I am not Pagan enough?

Conversion: The people that complain of such things are not the arbiters of judgment that they wish to be. And a good thing, too, since that’s not a call any human being is qualified to make.

4. My publisher’s reputation …

Conversion: Has never once put them at risk of going out of business. Let them worry about it.

5. The physical issues …

Conversion: You have a therapist. Your insurance covers the best healthcare network in town. Your chiropractor/orthopedic physical therapy guy is fantastic. Keep hitting the gym, keep doing your stretches, keep taking your allergy shots and medicine. You will be fine.

6. Promoting Divorcing a Real Witch while writing other books …

Conversion: You already decided to just do a local tour. You may have to wait until later to do the workshops or put together the documentary. Because it’s a rare topic you have a lot of room to do cool things on the backlist. The world may think now! now! now! on books … but the books you buy new don’t always have copyrights from this decade. It’s one of those things that you have more time to do than you think.


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Supplies: The Chorus of Woes: Real Gripes and Conversions

April 13, 2014 by Diana Rajchel | Comments Off | Filed in Creativity
Theatre Royal chorus, Tamarama Beach, ca. 1938 / by Sam Hood

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The Gripes

This is a series of real gripes about my current writing projects.

I’m scared it won’t be good enough. I worry I won’t finish it on time. I am having to take Mabon way out of the Pagan religious sphere into mainstream associations and what if people get all butthurt and start wailing that it’s not Pagan enough? What if they complain that I am not Pagan enough? My publisher is a much different publisher than it used to be but way to many people have developed confirmation bias – if it’s good they’ll just ignore that it’s good and carry on as though it’s still that old publisher from the 90s. I keep running into physical issues while I’m trying to write and accomplish. It’s starting to frighten/worry me a little. What if nothing I do is enough, ever? What if my back goes out again when I’m trying to work? I try to tough it out but it is truly difficult to focus enough to write when your body has gone crazy on you. I’m also worried about balancing it against the book coming out this year. How do I do promotion for that when I am embroiled in a contract right now? How the hell do other writers manage this stuff?

Conversions:

1. I’m scared I won’t be good enough.

Conversion: Of course I’m good enough. They gave me the contract because I have demonstrated since 1999 that I am good enough for such a project.

2. I’m scared I won’t finish in time.

Conversion: You have expended the most effort on the heavy research part. The other stuff involves things you write all the time that come very naturally to you. You can do this. If you really are worried about being stuck, contact your editor. Remember, this time you do have a more formal editor who will likely be revising along with you.

3. What if people complain I am not Pagan enough?

Conversion: The people that complain of such things are not the arbiters of judgment that they wish to be. And a good thing, too, since that’s not a call any human being is qualified to make.

4. My publisher’s reputation …

Conversion: Has never once put them at risk of going out of business. Let them worry about it.

5. The physical issues …

Conversion: You have a therapist. Your insurance covers the best healthcare network in town. Your chiropractor/orthopedic physical therapy guy is fantastic. Keep hitting the gym, keep doing your stretches, keep taking your allergy shots and medicine. You will be fine.

6. Promoting Divorcing a Real Witch while writing other books …

Conversion: You already decided to just do a local tour. You may have to wait until later to do the workshops or put together the documentary. Because it’s a rare topic you have a lot of room to do cool things on the backlist. The world may think now! now! now! on books … but the books you buy new don’t always have copyrights from this decade. It’s one of those things that you have more time to do than you think.


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